Ramblings and Updates

My cousin started a blog not too long ago. I was one of the people who suggested it. I love the idea of blogging. Being able to write out how you are feeling or what you want to rant about or anything really b/c it is MY space. My very own personal spot to do what I will when I will. Apparently when I will is not very often. So now that inspiration has come full circle she has inspired me to try to blog a little more often. I know I look forward to blogs that are constant and get updated often so who am I to throw a wrench in the wheel. With that being said here goes. An update!

Timmy and I have still been working on our house. I'm sure I've told you before that it's a little shoe box of a house but man it takes a lot to get it ready to be seen by the world. I don't like the idea of strangers walking through thinking my ceiling fans need to be cleaned. When it is ready we will be happy to sell and move! I love our home. It's our first house. I feel like we'll be leaving a close friend behind. I've always had a thing for inadament objects. I was the little girl who purchased the stuft animal with the wrinkled whiskers.. the toy with a peice missing. Damn that brave little toaster movie! If that won't make you appreciate your toys what will! Unfortunately it has traveled with me to adulthood and I feel like I'm leaving my teeny house behind for a bigger more popular house. Like I just got a go on the first round of cheer tryouts in the 6th grade and my "classroom friends" just aren't cutting it anymore. When I was a kid I never made it past the first round in those cheer tryouts. In fact when you get down to the nitty gritty I never made it out of the car to go into the tryouts. Now I'm older and braver and have to get out of the car and buy that new house. It means leaving the old one behind and that will be sad b/c it really feels like home BUT it will shine like a pretty new penny when i'm done with it and maybe it will be someone elses first home who will be as happy to move in as we were :) Finding a new home hasn't had the appeal that I thought it would. I always want something that is about 10K more than we should really go comfortably. Isn't that all the difference between houses.. 10K.. Seems like it. I want a house with a yard and a neighborhood where my dog barking won't be the end of the world but where it is nice and everyone takes great care of their lawns. I want a pool and a game room and a kitchen that I could live in and drink coffee and read the paper in on Sunday mornings. (I don't drink coffee or read the paper now) but I guess it's the house I imagine myself growing old and raising kids in. I hope it's out there and someone else will be sad to say goodbye to it the way I'm sad to say goodbye to my little house. I guess we'll see.

As far as the cousin who inspired me to write more... I'm glad she did start that blog. We didn't grow up together but it really seems like we did. My mom always says that I am like her Mur. I never got to meet Mur b/c she died before I was born...and the cousin infact but apparently I get my love for cooking and organizing and crafts and stuff from her. My mom was always rearanging and always made dinner and stuff but wasn't like I am in the way that I ENJOY it all. A new recipe can be so fun! This is one of those things that makes me question nature vs. nurture. My mom and uncle spent the most time with Mur out of the 4 siblings on that side and therefore were more likely to have her values and likes and dislikes instilled in them. Even though me and the cousin didn't grow up together it makes me wonder if we are the ones who are the most like Mur b/c her dad accidentally passed those along to her and my mom accidentally passed them along to me or if it's just the luck of the genetic draw b/c lord knows my sister can't make anything that didn't pop out of a box and she would rather be doing anything that some self imposed project. (not to say she doesn't have tons of lovely qualities) Anyways.... I guess that is all I have going on at the moment. If any of you happen to hear of my dream house in Conway, AR just let me know :) xoxo everyone. Have a good day!